Our Two Little Miracles

So many have asked to know the story behind our cute little miracles and I wanted to eventually share their story with all the details with each of you as a reminder that modern day miracles do happen, there is a Father in Heaven, and he does have a plan for each one of us. As we turn our lives over to him and have faith in him, he can make so much more out of our lives than we will ever be able to. I still have a hard time talking about the girls without getting emotional and I havent even started and my computer screen is already blurry by the tears coming down. I feel like we have been given these sweet gifts partly to share with those around us that God is real. He is mindful of each one of us. If you have ever lost faith, if you have ever doubted, if you are struggling with your own testimony our story will touch your heart and I have no doubt that through the spirit that hope will return. Each of us go through our own trials and tribulations and its good to hear these faith building stories to which Heavenly Father is the author. My testimony has been reborn of the mindfulness of our Heavenly Father. He really does know each and every desire of our hearts. He really does hear each and every prayer uttered out of our mouths in the dark of the night. He really does know our wants and our needs. I KNOW he laughs with us when we laugh and he cries with us when we cry. He carries us through our hard days and times until we are able to stand and when we are ready and the timing is right he blesses us. I wanted to write their story before I forgot the details AND to remind me of the greatness of The Plan and this gospel when I need a reminder. The last month or so I really felt the need to start going to the temple more regularly. I got off work early on Wednesdays so I decided I needed to go straight from work each Wednesday. As I attended the temple each Wednesday I noticed I had more patience and my mind was in the right place but I had several important decisions to make and I wasnt feeling like I was receiving any answers as to which direction I should go. It was frustrating to me because I felt like that was one gift I had in the past, to be able to receive answers and easily recognize the spirit. Many of you know Jay and I have been trying to start our own family for about 7 years. We have met with so many different doctors and so many different specialists. I have had every test there is to have and the drs. just can't seem to find anything wrong but yet none of the treatments were working. I had been pregnant 5 times and miscarried all five. We have had several adoption opportunities come only to not work out at the last minute. One of these imnportant decisions that I needed to make was what I needed to be doing to be proactive in starting our family. The treatments werent working and we had attended an LDS family services meeting to start the paperwork with them for adoption but I left the meeting not feeling 100% sure about that either. I was so confused and knew I wasnt getting any younger and wanted a family so badly and wanted to give my husband the opportunity to be a daddy soooo bad. I just knew he would be the best dad out there. I found myself frustrated, feeling like I was lost and not sure what to do and had been praying for soo long for some type of feeling or answer. I didnt feel like I was getting any answers. Thursday, January 12th, 2012 I had just gotten home from work it was about 6pm and I got a phone call from my sister-in-law who lives in Idaho. She said, I just heard about some twins that may need a home who were born in Oregon. She said Theresa who lives near my inlaws had heard about these babies through her brother Travis who is a doctor in this town in Oregon. She gave me the drs number in Oregon who would have more information for me. I called Travis and he said he didnt know a whole lot about the situation but gave me the phone number of the lady named Rachelle who was caring for the babies temporarily to help out the babies' grandma. I talked to Rachelle that night and told her that we were interested and to please keep our name in mind if there was a possibility that they would need a home. I talked with her off and on through out the week but she said grandma was still trying to figure out what would be best for these two sweet lil girls. I felt like miracle number one had already taken place for us to even hear about these girls through a chain of people who, most of them, we hadnt ever even met. Wednesday, the 18th I went to the temple again. I kept thinking about how frustrated I was that I just wasnt getting answers. I wasnt receiving promptings like I used to. Thursday, I was on my way to work and I stopped at McDonalds for breakfast. As I was driving to work I had a feeling to look at my hashbrown for a hair before I started eating it, but I ignored the prompting and started eating. My first bite I pulled out a HUGE long curly hair. Not just a lil hair but a very long one that I was sure not to miss!! This story is a lil funny but this is where it all started lol it was like Heavenly Father was telling me, you DO receive promptings, I AM listening, now quit feeling sorry for yourself and just listen. Thursday all day at work I kept receiving feelings and promptings that I needed to fly to Oregon to meet the grandma of these babies. I kept having the feeling that I needed to go that weekend and I needed to go by myself. They were VERY specific feelings I was getting. This is sooo not like me, to put my self out there like that, especially by myself. Keep in mind I hadn't even talked to grandma on the phone. For all I knew SHE didnt even know I existed. Had I not had the hashbrown experience right before this I can honestly say I wouldn't have gone. It was so out of my comfort zone and something I would normally would not do but I couldnt deny the feelings I was having. I told Jay, and he was very surprised that I felt so strongly about this but also very supportive and told me I needed to follow what I was feeling. I called Rachelle and told her that I was flying out there. I told her about the feelings I was having and I think even said I know you prob think I'm a crazy lady cuz Im thinking the same thing lol but I can't ignore what I'm feeling. I told her I needed to meet the grandma. I'm sure in her head she was thinking, well what if Grandma doesn't want to meet you!! lol She told me she wasn't sure if grandma was available and didn't want me to fly all the way out not knowing if she would be around to meet. I told her I felt so strongly about it I just knew it would work out somehow. We booked a ticket Thursday and I flew out Friday at 6am with just a carry on. My intentions were to fly out meet grandma and fly right back. Miracle number two took place on my flight. My flight was delayed in California. I was stuck there for quite some time. Because my flight was delayed I was going to be able to meet Mary who knows grandma as well because Rachelle had other plans that night. Rachelle and Mary are my earthly angels and I just thank Heavenly Father every single day for them and for giving me a chance and not automatically assuming I had lost my marbles ((which would have been easy to assume lol). I finally got to my destination and when I got to the town in Oregon where the grandma was I called Rachelle and she met me in a parking lot and then introduced me to Mary and also grandma. I was soooo extremely nervous. I thought I was going to pass out. I didnt know what I was going to say or how the conversation was going to start. I felt like I was on a blind date again but even worse. I sat with grandma in her car and immediately a feeling of peace came over me. I felt like I had known her longer than just the few minutes we had been together. We talked for awhile and afterwards I felt good. I felt like what I came to do (meet grandma) was done and I was ready to fly back home without the anxiety I had come with lol. But then she asked me to come back Sunday and go to church with them. To make a long story short by Sunday night I called Jay and told him to come out. He started driving Sunday night and got there Monday morning. By Tuesday we had met with an attorney and by Tuesday night we were leaving Oregon with the girls. In these few days there were soo many little miracles that took place, too personal to share publicly but that allowed us to take the girls so quickly. Normally these types of things don't happen so fast and even the attorney kept telling us that this was a special case and he had to jump through a bunch of loop holes ect ect. I have no doubt that all that happened was too much to simply be coincidence. I needed to be out there THAT weekend. After we got home with the girls grandma told us that the state came to take the girls. My first time meeting the girls Heavenly Father has been putting the puzzle together for some time and everything so quickly and so smoothly fell into place and blessed just doesnt seem like a word big enough to describe how Jay and I feel. Every single day when we cuddle and kiss on these girls we are reminded of our Heavenly Father's love for not only us but each one of his children. He has a plan for each of us. He wants us ALL to be happy, I have no doubt about this. Thank you Theresa, Travis, Mary, Rachelle, and Raquel for giving us a chance. For following your heart and taking part in being an answer to our prayers. There will ALWAYS be a special place in our hearts for each one of you. If any of you are reading this and feel the need to share your side of the story PLEASE do. I really feel like there are people out there that will be touched in one way or another. We would feel ungrateful if we didnt thank all of our friends and family members all over who have laughed with us, prayed with us, fasted with us, and cried with us through all of this. We have felt your love and support and we are humbled by so many of you who have showed this to us. Thank you!! Lastly, I hope we dont offend anyone by the overwhelming excitement we feel. If you are reading this and you struggle with infertility or if you have ever lost a baby dont give up. Dont loose hope. Be available in anyway possible to receive. Dont be ashamed to be open about it. Because I am so open about mine ive been able to talk to so many who struggle. So many who are hurting. Be strong. I know what you are feeling and I know what you go through everyday! Let those around you help you through it. You have nothing to be ashamed about. Dont loose hope!! When the timing is right you too will have your story to tell if you continue believing. I have no doubt!!